Kiss her. Slowly, take your time, there’s no place you’d rather be. Kiss her but not like you’re waiting for something else, like your hands beneath her shirt or her skirt or tangled up in her bra straps. Nothing like that. Kiss her like you’ve forgotten any other mouth that your mouth has ever touched. Kiss her with a curious childish delight. Laugh into her mouth, inhale her sighs. Kiss her until she moans. Kiss her with her face in your hands. Or your hands in her hair. Or pulling her closer at the waist. Kiss her like you want to take her dancing. Like you want to spin her into an open arena and watch her look at you like you’re the brightest thing she’s ever seen. Kiss her like she’s the brightest thing you’ve ever seen. Take your time. Kiss her like the first and only piece of chocolate you’re ever going to taste. Kiss her until she forgets how to count. Kiss her stupid. Kiss her silent. Come away, ask her what 2+2 is and listen to her say your name in answer.
I know there are things in your life that are not going exactly how you planned them. I know that you fight against very real and dangerous thoughts. I know at times you feel alone, feel hopeless, feel unloved, feel unworthy. I know that you doubt yourself, and you have fears about the past coming back to haunt you. I know you have fears that the future is going to be a mess. I know that you sometimes think that you have no one in the world that you could ever completely trust, and I know that you sometimes think you deserve all sorts of terrible things. I know that it all seems so unfair, and that you’re having trouble figuring out how you’ll make it through another day. I know your pain and I know your struggles.
I know all these things about you because I made you. I created you with purpose and because I wanted you to be in this world I have created. I made you to be loved, and I love you so very much that you will never find the ends of my love. I love you endlessly. I need you to trust in me. I need you to believe that the word I have given you is true throughout all circumstances, and that there is nothing that can separate you from my love. I simply will not let that happen. I need you to believe that in everything I work to bring you goodness, to bring you to be more like my Son. I do not let things happen without reason, and I need you to have faith that my reasons are pure. Believe in me, believe in my declarations. There is a place for you with me in heaven, and if anyone is to tell you otherwise then they speak not from me, but from the enemy. I have you in my hand and I will not let you go. Your past is over, and your future is secure. You are no longer under penalty of death, because I love you. I loved you and I died so that you might live in me. Do not doubt my love for you. I will sustain you through all things, whether you are in bliss or in trial. I am with you, always, caring for you, loving on you, bringing you to a point of greatness. Believe in my words. You are able to overcome all things. You have my blessings and you have my power. You are more than the words that you give to yourself. You are exactly what I say you are. You are mine.
Beloved, please find me. I am right in front of you, I only need you to open your eyes to me. I am here for you, to support you, and to protect you. Remember that I am God, and be still. I am all you need, and I offer myself to you now. Accept me, and allow me to work. In me you will be satisfied.
I am forever yours, my child.
These words are repeated a thousand times, thrown to the wind with a flick of the wrist. It’s no wonder why people don’t flinch when they hear what has been done for them, when it’s whispered in fear or spoken with a laugh.
Read like an infant when they see their mother for the first time. Read with ignorance, as though you’ve never seen these words before. Hold these words as a treasure, as the secret every lost soul is searching to find. Remember these words as just a taste of the love that’s coming, the tease before the bliss.
A man died.
A man was crucified.
A man had nails hammered into his wrists,
and poisonous thorns plunged into his skull.
He died to set free the mouth of every man who mocked him. He died to set the addicts free from captivity. He went through the torture every adulterer, every rapist, every liar, cheater, and thief deserves so they can be given eternal life. He died for the ones who cringe at the thought of religion. He died for the ones who scoff at the name of God.
He died. His last words were asking God for the forgiveness of every man and women who put him on the cross.
He died, begging God to have mercy on me.
He died because God loved us so much, that He gave his son, so whoever believes in Him, will never perish, but have eternal life.
He died because he chose to love me in my sin and imperfection.
He died because He loves you.
I didn’t choose; I was chosen. I was the one loved and died for. There was no testing the waters of different religions here and there. I am not indecisive about who I serve. I don’t want to serve anything but the True Man who died for every soul, no matter what they have done or will do. I serve the most realest, most truest Love that is, nothing else can satisfy.
1. When someone tells you that you should go to bed, they’re probably right. You’ll regret not listening in the morning.
2. No one ever got anywhere without a little work. You want to be a writer? Write. You want to be a musician? Practice. It’s going to be hard and it’s going to take long hours and you’re going to miss that one party but if it’s what you love, it’s always worth it.
3. It’s really easy to get caught up in everything. It’s really easy to forget who was there at the beginning. You’ll feel it happening and you’ll want to ignore it, but darling, don’t you dare. Don’t pull away. Remember where you came from.
4. Everything is easier in the summer. Everything.
5. You have to put yourself first. Stop doing things simply for the sake of doing them - do things because you want to and do things because they make you want to smile and never stop.
6. Spend time with your family. They put up with you through your seventh grade troublemaker phase and if that’s not love, I don’t know what is.
7. Give yourself time. Stop shoving your feelings aside. It’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to sleep until three in the afternoon and then cry because you wasted your day. If no one’s ever told you before, I’m telling you now: your feelings are valid.
And this is the marvel of marvels; that He called me Beloved.